When you speak to lots of people, it gets easier to detect “mood trends”. Lately, after autumn kicked in, many people feel a bit depressed, closed to themselves in the personal life area. Funny, it seems the seasons play a role in our social lives more important than one could think.
I’m no exception.
(sidenote:) since the blog started, I always spoke about my personal life, at least between the lines. Unfortunately, given that I am not exactly “anonymous” (most of my frequent readers know who I am, some have met me in person etc etc) I can’t say much. If you’re an old reader, you remember other posts in which the “anonymity” issue troubled me. Being careful in what you write doesn’t help writing. It’s so damn limiting. But I’m kinda sick of it.
I consider myself officially single since July 2008. And regardless of my less or more serious adventures since then, I take it that I have been single all that time.
The city I live in, Aix, is a “flirt-friendly” town, with its numerous students and all. Unfortunately, it’s no more than that.
I have narrated the basic info of my life approximately 5.873 times so far. I think I have memorized the answers so good that sometimes I give the answer even before the other person finishes the question:
“So what are y..” – “Management”
“And wher..” “Athens”
You get the picture.
And I’m growing older. In the sense that, as I wrote in my previous post, I become less patient and I find it more difficult to accept other people’s shit. I’m less tolerant and less compromising. It’s “given” to me, that as I’m growing older I have the right to demand exactly what I’m searching for. (OK I’d need a whole new post in order to describe that!)
I’m also finding it easier to be… alone. On one hand, I want stuff to “happen” to me, on the other, I’m comfortably numb in this single-bachelor-doing-whatever-I-feel-like situation. And now with the work, I have a good excuse for quitting trying: I have no time. (which is not entirely false)
Recently I had a “I stop dating” crisis/resolution. Pfffff, don’t know how much this will last. I am this classic lame “love-at-first-sight” type/thing, easily excited, quickly disappointed. I wouldn’t stop myself from trying my luck to a girl who’s giving me the sweet eyes. Especially after the How I met your Mother craze, with the thought that a moment can change your life blabla, I don’t like to let opportunities slip away.
What I am really going to do, is set the barriers this time. I’m kinda saving myself. Enough of the mindless flirting etc etc. That way I’ll avoid stories that go nowhere, or mean nothing. And maybe that’s what I suggest you too.
We all, more or less, have an internal 6th sense of which story is going to move forward and which not. We know when we really like someone and we feel it when we really likes us back. And I know well that all of you (us?) are looking forward for something “wau”, but what if for a change, we concentrated on ourselves, in a constructive way, in our friends, while keeping our eyes ears and hearts open, in case something really special comes up?
Yeaaaa I know, all this sounds “blahh blabla”. Some of you are complaining inside your heads as you read this, I know. It’s like I’m hearing it in mine.
Easy solution? Live your love life through films and series 
It’s dysfunctional, but it gets you through the night!
