As you may know, by reading my previous articles (or by talking to me live), the latest period let’s say April – May has been a period of a swift from doing to thinking. Oh that can’t be good! Unfortunately, due to events and the pressure for job and the end of school which signaled a more loose daily program, thinking found it’s way in my daily routine, and as always, made a mess.
Talking about thinking, I think I finally have to limit its place where necessary. And above all, do it IN TIME, when it actually can CONTRIBUTE positively to my decisions.
Talking about doing, or having fun in general, I think I realized I should feel lucky (and I do), for having met many wonderful people in town. Honestly sometimes I feel that without them Aix wouldn’t be fun at all.
Now the sad part is that all these people are going away, some of them really soon (like the end of the week or the beginning of the next one), some in June. I suppose I am leaving soon too (or at least I hope I do).
Am I really? I have this sudden urge to stay here, but I don’t know why. There comes the thinking. (in time?) If it’s cause I want to keep things alive, then I suppose it’s pointless, cause it’s not the city I bonded with, it’s the people. Come on, cities are nothing but buildings and roads and shops and trees. You can’t bond with that. PEOPLE are the glue that holds everything together. It is life.
So my thoughts of staying here should be just put aside, and instead new thoughts of new big exotic cities I could possibly get hired at should invade my brain. And it kindda works! I mean, whether it’s London, Paris, Stockholm, Kopenhagen (although for the last two it seems tough to find offers), Brussels, Munich, New York or I don’t know what, it’s NEW and for sure it will have so many new things to give: experiences, people, sounds, languages, mentalities. ( I think the psychologists call that self-motivation )
PS: I just COULDN’T miss that, in the last month or so, I have restablished contact with maybe two of the most important people in my life, and that feels go good and healthy. Damn! I think that afterall, good people never go out of your life for ever. And that gives hope.
