I have been sending out resumes and cover letters since late January. This makes it something like 4 months of searching. Time is running out and third solutions or compromisations in either job type or location should be done. I think my profile could interest quite lots of people but the lack of experience and a long portfolio of web projects makes it even harder. (I could mention the financial crisis too but I’m fed up)
If I had the European isawu.eu project in my toolcase I could easily use it to gain some respect from the recruiters and the web agencies. But in order for this one to be realized I need minimum one month of 12h/day work and even then I couldn’t do it like I have imagined it to be.
I am frequently getting disappointed and I lose faith but somehow I find the courage to go on. I think I have to prove I can do it, not to people that have been doubting me for years (fuck them), but for myself mostly. This pushes me more and more every single day.
Many friends have been supportive and encouraging, and that’s a good thing, but sometimes promises of help stay words and not actions. I think I understand, or at least I try to. Professional life is something different and few people would sacrifice contacts or time or experience.
