Things doesn’t seem so bright lately. Of course everything is just a matter of point of view but frankly my point of view right now is really shitty.

I guess my stupid brain chemical balances or out of .. balance  .. again maybe due to lack of sleep, but in any case, my perceived sense of reality isn’t so different from the ACTUAL reality.

Going back THERE and thinking more about “Would this happen if the other one didnt happen” sequence of events, this time I’m mostly thinking WHO THE FUCK UP THERE IS MESSING UP with my life scenarios. I hope he has a good plan for the rest cause FRANKLY, I’M FED UP with all the different bullshit going on, tough decisions and the like.

Yeap, we have a crisis. Small one, big one, time will tell, but for now I’m putting off fires all over the place. The next two months will be a great challenge. Nothing like ever before. Until now I had support from back home, now I will have to go 100% alone ahead. It’s fucking scary if you ask me. And it sucks more when you think you’re alone. Well, not all alone. But more or less.

The STUPID FINANCIAL CRISIS is giving me a headache, an ulcer and the like, and honestly we’re pretty much desperate. Being a waiter is not really my ideal scenario but I’ll do it no second thoughts if I have to.

Anyway, I’ll try to get myself some time-off everything and I’ll write you back later or the next days.

Don’t worry. I’ll be fine. I guess.

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